30 12 2005

I suppose I’ve finally come to some form of closure in this phase of my life. Things have been unsettled, and in certain aspects a big way, but through it all I’ve been dealt a lesson that God is my pillar of strength, that I should look to nowhere else, that I should not take matters into my own hands and that I should focus on Him.

It is always a matter of faith.

“I refuse to prove that I exist,” says God, “for proof denies faith, and without faith I am nothing.”

“But,” say Man, “the Babel fish is a dead giveaway, isn’t it? It could not have evolved by chance. It proves you exist, and so therefore, by your own arguments, you don’t. QED.”

“Oh dear,” says God, “I hadn’t though of that” and promply vanishes in a puff of logic.

Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy

As blasphemous as Douglas Adams was in Hitchhikers’, it does illustrates the point that faith is the antithesis of logic and rationality. With faith you step off the cliff knowing that somehow you’ll survive, with faith you let go of all the work you have painstakingly done and leave it in the hands of God. And it is faith that I have a problem with.

Christianity is a logical religion. Indeed, it is, if I dare say, the most rational and logical religion. Anything and everything can be proven somehow, or shows inherent wisdom and logic within it, but yet it all stems from a singular act of illogical and irrational faith.

So do not worry saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
Romans 6:31-33

And that is my struggle. I have been rational all this while. Or at least I try to be. But my faith in God has always been a nagging issue. I know He’s there, but I just cannot put down things I have been holding on to and entrust everything in His hands. And thus these things that happened in the past month or so happened, and in taking away those things that I hold on to, I am told to focus on Him.

I hope I have learnt my lesson, and that I can renew my spiritual walk with renewed fervor and devotion. Because I know He will restore those things, but only at His own time.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths.
Proverbs 3:5,6

For everything there is a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven:
A time to be born, And a time to die;
A time to plant, And a time to pluck up that which is planted;
A time to kill, And a time to heal;
A time to break down, And a time to build up;
A time to weep, And a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, And a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones, And a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, And a time to lose;
A time to keep, And a time to cast away;
A time to tear, And a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, And a time to speak;
A time to love, And a time to hate;
A time for war, And a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8




3 responses

30 12 2005

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths.
Proverbs 3:5,6

how strange.. i woke up with this verse in my head. Be strong,okay, I know you can be and will emerge from this refined. after all, thats what tests of fire are for, to refine us.

3 01 2006

“We live by faith, not by sight.”
2 Corinthians 5:7

“For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith – and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God”
Ephesians 2:8

It is only through His faith, the gift of God that we can accept Jesus as our Saviour and receive salvation.

What should we do to receive the faith of God?

First, there must be repentence. We must repent of all of our disobedience to God’s Word and our rebellion against His will.

Second, we must give our lives to God. “Do, not according to my will, but according to Yours. O Father” This must be our attitude.

Third, we must have patience. We must wait upon the Lord to grant us His faith. In order to receive God’s blessings which affect us physically and environmentally, we must first settle our spiritual problems.

– Adapted from Spiritual Leadership for the New Millenium, Dr. David Yonggi Cho.

I pray that you will receive the faith of God. May you live a life that will please God with the measure of faith that God has granted you. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
Psalm 34:18

“By day, the Lord went ahead of them in a pillar of cloud to guide them on their way and by night in a pillar of fire to give them light, so that they could travel day and night. Neither the pillar of cloud by day nor the pillar of fire by night left its place in front of the people.”
Exodus 13:21,22

Just the same way that God has led the Isralites out of Egypt, God will always be your guide, day and night. He will lead you beside quiet waters and restore your soul. He will give you peace. The God is peace. Amen.

“The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.”
Psalm 23:1

9 01 2006

Hey dude.

I haven’t checked your blog for a while.

Hope things will be better for you as you continue afresh in your walk with the Lord.

I would like to share with you a phrase which I’ve decided to adopt for this new year.

Totus Tuus – its latin for “totally yours”.

As you offer all things to the Lord, I’m sure He’ll look kindly on you and help you along your way.

Take care and may the Lord bless you and keep you.

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